I have struggled with severe depression most of my life. For the last 25 plus years I have dealt with connective tissue disease which keeps me in chronic, constant pain. Johns Hopkins Hospital in Baltimore is one of 3 places worldwide that is using E C T as a treatment for pain. I've been a patient at Hopkins pain program for 20 years and was offered the opportunity to try this treatment. To a large extent it has worked. I'm still in constant pain but I'm able to treat it with Tylenol and another anti inflammatory drug. No narcotics and no opioids. I still struggle with depression but I am getting help from a new medicine. I seem to be feeling better because of it.
Friday, October 3, 2014
Wednesday, October 1, 2014
Update to 2014
It's been 4 years since I wrote in this blog... It would be silly to say "A lot has happened in 4 years...". so I won't.
Daughter Brianna has had 2 kids, girls, quite beautiful. Daughter Emily is a junior in college, doing outstanding. Son Cameron...I don't know much about, we're not in touch. It feels shitty but I don't have a solution. Dawn and I are still in the drunk junk and happy crap business. Dawn's gift and book store "Celebrate Recovery" is 23 years old and still struggling along. She is 55, I am 60. Not sure how we will survive into old age. I try not to worry or be filled with abject terror but some days it's easier than others. I like to believe that the Universe will take care of us... I don't always feel comfortable with that. Who could?
My mother died this summer. Just before her 88th birthday. She simply wore out. I was in the hospital undergoing Electro Convulsive Treatments... although the T in E C T might actually stand for Therapy... I'm not really sure. Whatever... Every time I had a treatment I forgot almost everything I knew, especially current events. Consequently I got to find out my mom died 6 times, each time as if it had just happened. It was pretty fucked up, to say the least.
Why was I having E C T, you might wonder. I have
It's been 4 years since I wrote in this blog... It would be silly to say "A lot has happened in 4 years...". so I won't.
Daughter Brianna has had 2 kids, girls, quite beautiful. Daughter Emily is a junior in college, doing outstanding. Son Cameron...I don't know much about, we're not in touch. It feels shitty but I don't have a solution. Dawn and I are still in the drunk junk and happy crap business. Dawn's gift and book store "Celebrate Recovery" is 23 years old and still struggling along. She is 55, I am 60. Not sure how we will survive into old age. I try not to worry or be filled with abject terror but some days it's easier than others. I like to believe that the Universe will take care of us... I don't always feel comfortable with that. Who could?
My mother died this summer. Just before her 88th birthday. She simply wore out. I was in the hospital undergoing Electro Convulsive Treatments... although the T in E C T might actually stand for Therapy... I'm not really sure. Whatever... Every time I had a treatment I forgot almost everything I knew, especially current events. Consequently I got to find out my mom died 6 times, each time as if it had just happened. It was pretty fucked up, to say the least.
Why was I having E C T, you might wonder. I have
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